MBall's Corner

Lie to me, as I lie to you

Breaking trust even before and after the ending

Disfigured soul from battle

Never ending silence leave me for dead

 

cut through the pain

Deep lines to leave blood stain

No confidence to pain

No love lost...only strength to regain

 

I can't fucking hear you

Dark screaming blinded...pass through

I’m fed up, wrapped up, fucked up...

considering i don't give a fuck

 

concentrate, contemplate, irritate, it's TO late!!

Well holy bags of crap, I am about to enter a blog for the first time in a long time.  So I guess the people need an update on the MBall.  Well I have set my journey in life away from Yarmouth, Nova Scotia, and am back living in Fredericton, New Brunswick.  It's been almost 5 years since I last lived here, and it's great to be finally back.  Most of the friends I had back then are still kicking around here, and also I am getting a chance to hang out with a couple of my high school best buds once again (could this mean a Stoned Taxi Driver's reunion????)  As for the new job, I've landed a position with prominent e-learning company working in there development department (coding is fun ????)  So far things are slow, but by the looks of things I may be hitting the ground running in the next couple days (meetings, meetings, meetings...and guess what....I don't know really ...HA.)  For those that don't know my birthday was yesturday, and I must say, I was little worried at first that it was going to be a little boring this year, but my brother pulled through this year and made it a fantastic night at the back 9 (wicked sports bar in town, definitly recommend it to anybody.)  Anyways thank you to everybody for your birthday wish's, and here's to 23!!!!

even after my lower expectation

no reason for an explaination

sold to an ancient soul

drawin down with the last piece of coal

never been

always grim

today is the last day

but my mind is emtpy, never lost my way

RUSH

blood is to much

HUSH

can never touch

RUSH

blood is to much

HUSH

can never touch

look to the next horizon

gentle in the heart of a lion
maybe to trip agian

though I sit to let no light in

never been

always grim

today is the last day

but my mind is emtpy, never lost my way

 Spinning further, deeper
I know you're out to try me
I'm not in this to be a slave
Push the dirt
Make me feel
Locate what swallows life
Night bird you build my world

...and then I close my eyes

Judge me now
Used to be afraid to let it show
Bow down
I'm in a much better place now
Everything's in place
So much brighter from today
A king in my own mind

Drown the monster
Make all bad dreams go away
Whatever it takes to keep your hands free
Open scars
The quiet place
All the bridges fall to the ground
And you say you sacrificed

*these lyrics are from the song "The Quiet Place" by INFLAMES....fantastic song...if you ever get a chance give it a listen...I can't seem to find a link to go listen to it...but if you really do go out and find it...happy hunting !!

where do I begin

the walls are caving in

let down for the last time

have to give up, your not mine

 

i think one thing, but in the end its another

blinded by a light want to take cover

out in the open for everyone to see

please just let me be....just set me free

 

darkness takes over the sky

the flames in me die

dig deep to start again

but takin back because now i sin

 

wish and pray to make the pain go away

but my angel is dead and my soul grey

lash me down the whip of pain

torn through my back to leave the blood stain

everyday goes by and I wait

everyday goes by now I hate

everyday goes by and I wait

why can't you relate, before it's to late

 

the one chance that I give doesn't seem to be right here

a question I've asked...no answer I hear

and if the time goes by after hours I wait

why can't you relate....before it's to...

 

now take a good look at things that you have

is it the answer...or does it make you sad

every night goes by you sit and you wait

why can't you relate, before it's to late

closed off from sanity

air is thinning and fading away

want to wait for eternity

and still you have nothing to say

 

can't see it come...fuck you better run

if I get my hands on you...shit, theres nothing you can do

the last thing you'll see is my foot in your face

not that hard of a case, but a fuck'n disgrace

 

take these seconds to realise

I CAN'T DIE, but you can....I CAN'T DIE...but you can

 

 

since I was small boy...it doesn't really matter

trying to find my way...it doesn't really matter

and since the dawn of yesturday....it doesn't really matter

this pain in my head will leave me for dead

 

it doesn't really matter....why so much HATE

it doesn't really matter....can't stop my FEAR

it doesn't really matter....why so much HATE

it doesn't really matter....now I hate cause I fear...

 

tell me to keep trying...it doesn't really matter

tell me it all be ok...it doesn't really matter

tell me that you love me...it doesn't really matter

the screams in my head can't let me forget

 

 

bled from my feeble bones

can't leave me alone

and if it happens once more

you can go right out the door

and then your left with you

and theres nothing you can do

cause theres not much left to say

because I am a bigger person today

 

and if I take this pain once more

and if it means I can't change my score

left in a bottle but for to long

especially a consideration when your wrong...HA HA..your wrong...

 

wait, what the hell....turn around, turn around...

I am chained...but not bound, but not bound...

and if I get smothered anymore....you'll be scorn...and I'll be torn....

FUCK IT...CAN'T TAKE THIS SHIT ANYMORE...

 

no one left, no one to shine

all eyes are clouded

get grounded, cause I found it....I found it

 

one man's LIES....makes everyone DIE...

 

in a perfect ending

no hate, no crime

what has this fallen empire

have left to say, as the sky turns grey

 

 

 

theres a new sky today

helps the tears fade away

but if the world turned gray

take this simple kind of way

when theres nothing left to say 

and can't leave this pain to stay

 

don't see a change in me

three words will set you free

oncover them to see

strong like roots of a tree

cross the ocean cross the sea

but don't throw away the key

grim sounds of silent in the dark

burned deep to  leave the mark

zig zag the knife between the lines

over the hand of the redefined

never pressing on the edge of sin

you will never win, come let it in

 

taking my time to rewind your mind

go in blind to see nothing but

taking my time to rewind your mind

go in blind to see nothing...nothing...nothing...

 

rounded by the edge suffering 

starting the neverending

gone through the past to find

all is the same but I'm blind I'm blind I'm blind

never pressing on the edge of sin

you will never win, come let it in

 

THIS IS NOTHING, WHY NOTHING, FORGET NOTHING, I feel nothing

 

Taking my time to rewind your mind

go in blind to see nothing but

taking my time to rewind your mind

go in blind to see nothing...nothing...nothing...

quick but suddenly

blood rushed society

all want power

to sit on the highest tower

 

Politically insane, now your in the game

To take away the pain, makes a body strain

Well I am usually a pretty chipper person most of time when I enter these blogs but this one will not be one.  This past Friday evening was cut short with the tragic lose of my good buddy Pun's little kitty Skeet.  Now I realise that a lot of cats get hit by vehicles and what not, but to see a little kitty, especially one you see everyday, hit by a pick up truck right infront of you, the owner of the cat, and 2 other witness's it is a lot harder to deal with.  It also maybe a lot harder because the stupid pick up truck driver didn't even stop to say....ahhhh I hit your cat, I'm sorry....or did I just hit something guys....or OH MY GOD WHAT HAVE I DONE!!! anyways thats my rant for now....rest in peace little buddy!!!

Hello all.  I've just uploaded another sample from our jam night last night.  Like I said before if there are people that don't like it, I don't care because I love it!!!! werd.

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Well for some strange reason I can't seem to enter new blogs these days...so I guess I'll just continue to add to one then...

 

Boil is Boiling:

 

I always promised to (blood is boiling, blood is boiling)

there for you to see it through(blood is boiling, blood is boiling)

you turn away from me (blood is boiling, blood is boiling)

now the dirty whore I see (blood is boiling, blood is the...)

 

SILENCE.....in all of us

ALWAYS....takes to much...if I

NEVER....stand up...I'll just

make the cut...MAKE THE CUT

 

Everything turns to red

Tortured in my head

While you fucked another

I waited for you, my lover

remember the first time...we said hello...

oh what did we know....what did we know

and I remember the last time...we said good bye...

instantly complied of everything but now.... I... 

 

can't breath and don't believe

that this will never be....you will never see...it is

screaming through my head...locked away dead

its been so long....but hey somebody can always be...

 

wrong before its done and wash away the tears...

that where built up all these years

 

can't breath and don't believe

that this will never be...you will never see...it is

screaming through my head...locked away dead

its been so long...rushing back rushing back rushing back

 

 

Man I's got's one sweet ass ahhhh moooSTACHE.....

So after hours and hours of trying to compress a video we shot jammin one night I decided to just rip the sound of it and put a small sample of the sound we, Ellipse, are putting out into the open air.  Do enjoy, and if you don't enjoy it...I do!!!

should I go, I do not know

and if you cried, did I lie

and for the last time I'd do the crime

so leave me, leave me behind....so I can do my...

 

time....

 

 

time...

 

after times of dispare of no care without the will to bare

constant reminder of a life once there

over and over this runs through my mind

rewind, turn back, turn over and take back whats mine